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I'm about to self destruct but I really don't give a fuck cuz with my luck ill live another day the same way no change will proceed. I didn't take heed to the warnings I received, I just left it there, carried it no where and here I am where they predicted adjusting to being disrespected, no longer feeling lifted, rather chained. Mangled by the lies that led to my demise I watch the sun fall and rise again and here we are same walls, same floor, same tone, same burn, same hurt, same yearn for change.. with words we rearrange a person. Who u think u r means nothing at the hands of an angry person. To love is to care not disassemble and repair and rebuild and rebreak, I'm sure it was just mistake.. Ill forgive you, yes.. Forget, not yet... Give me a while to supress the denial and accept these facts as my life fades to black that the decisions I've made demonstrate a lack of affection and connection, fear of rejection and from my recollection not nearly enough protection.