im just lookin for a little inspiration
someone to lift me up inside
inspiration from their words
their beliefs
inspiration from their eyes and the world they see
to be inspired is to gain wisdom
and wisdom is the most powerful tool
wisdom can be passed on and live forever
as none of us will ever do
inspire me to create a masterpiece
to mold statues out of clay
ill inspire you to do the same
and together, we can play
play on words, play on hearts
this isnt poker im not just cards
if i were a hand id win you see
royal flush
you can be king, but im queen.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
extraversion-introversion
So how do you perceive yourself? Is your personality type as extraversion or more of an introversion? I am definately Extravert sided more towards Ambivert. Don't know much about it? You can check it out here on Wikipedia.
People who love the internet are definately Extraverts. You love to be seen, get your name out there, tweet to some celebz "Hey FOLLOW ME!"
I worked in mental health for a while in Winston Salem, NC and became interested in psychology. The human brain does amazing things. So complex beyond our wisdom. Sometimes you have to slow down enough to pay attention to your body and how it works. If you don't know how it works, how every muscle twitch is a set of electricity, proteins moving, cells changing shape, unbelievable...
You should try to learn something about it. They say you should stop 1 minute a day for every year of your age and have "quiet time". 24years old=24 mins a day. It's pretty cool if you do that, but you have to try and block everything out and FOCUS. (F)ollow (O)ne (C)ourse (U)ntil (S)uccess.
Back to our personalities. They say most serial killers are introverts. I believe it. How could you not want to kill someone if you hold everything inside. I do know a few. Introverts are more likely to solve problems in their heads. Extraverts have to be able to take criticism because they put everything out there.
When I was in Radiology Tech school we went into the anatomy lab and saw the dead people. I was interested in learning, not so much feeling. The brain felt like hamburger meat. Ha. Have you watched "The Book Of Eli"? The old people that ate the meat? That plate looked like it had bologna in it. Would you eat people if you had to? Not me.
Im way too spacey to be doing this right now.
I live a pretty boring life but I get to stay home with my son so it's worth the monotony.
Love you if you read this. You are awesome. <3
People who love the internet are definately Extraverts. You love to be seen, get your name out there, tweet to some celebz "Hey FOLLOW ME!"
I worked in mental health for a while in Winston Salem, NC and became interested in psychology. The human brain does amazing things. So complex beyond our wisdom. Sometimes you have to slow down enough to pay attention to your body and how it works. If you don't know how it works, how every muscle twitch is a set of electricity, proteins moving, cells changing shape, unbelievable...
You should try to learn something about it. They say you should stop 1 minute a day for every year of your age and have "quiet time". 24years old=24 mins a day. It's pretty cool if you do that, but you have to try and block everything out and FOCUS. (F)ollow (O)ne (C)ourse (U)ntil (S)uccess.
Back to our personalities. They say most serial killers are introverts. I believe it. How could you not want to kill someone if you hold everything inside. I do know a few. Introverts are more likely to solve problems in their heads. Extraverts have to be able to take criticism because they put everything out there.
Ambiversion is a term used to describe people who fall more or
less directly in the middle and exhibit tendencies of both groups.
An ambivert is normally comfortable with groups and enjoys social interaction,
but also relishes time alone and away from the crowd.
That's from Wiki also.
Ambiversion is for normal people. An Ambivert is "normal". Duh.
I dont think its right that the medical profession diagnoses every single character trait an individual might have too much or too little of as a disease. It's all about the money. They diagnose prescription drugs and benefit from it somehow. There are always alterior motives in the world today.
When I was in Radiology Tech school we went into the anatomy lab and saw the dead people. I was interested in learning, not so much feeling. The brain felt like hamburger meat. Ha. Have you watched "The Book Of Eli"? The old people that ate the meat? That plate looked like it had bologna in it. Would you eat people if you had to? Not me.
Im way too spacey to be doing this right now.
I live a pretty boring life but I get to stay home with my son so it's worth the monotony.
Love you if you read this. You are awesome. <3
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Adinas Bday!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Hello cruel world...
Birthday parties all day today, one for a five year old, one for a 25 year old. They will be occuring at different times and places. 5 year old is supposed to have a 60 foot water slide but I don't think the weather is permitting. The 25 year old is going to Christies Caberet (a titty bar) and then to The Mix Martini Bar where the festivities will continue. Happy birthday Braylon and Adina!
My friend from Basic Training and AIT came to visit me yesterday from Columbia, SC. Her husband is stationed in Fort Jackson for the next three years so we are going use the time wisely and spend as much of it together as we can.
Has anyone watched the "When I Was 17"? I've seen Drake, Snooki, Pharrell. Snooki was so thin and pretty. I'm not a fan of her looks anymore, little too soft for me. I'm a sucker for JWOWW. If people would go with it I would change my name to TWOWW. She's ready to knuckle up at any second for her friends, I love it. Ciara is on the tv show right now. She's the Queen.
We ran into a scrooge while we were out last night. This guy was so serious about us going to play pool with him. I basically had to turn on the "Bitch" and get him out of there. He would throw hissy fits and walk off, then come back and proceed trying to pick us up. His anger issues were clearly visible. He was definately talking to the wrong girls acting like that.
Also, I love when guys try to hit on me by saying they are in the military. They never expect a girl like me to say "Guess what?! I AM TO!"
I'm awesome.
My friend from Basic Training and AIT came to visit me yesterday from Columbia, SC. Her husband is stationed in Fort Jackson for the next three years so we are going use the time wisely and spend as much of it together as we can.
Has anyone watched the "When I Was 17"? I've seen Drake, Snooki, Pharrell. Snooki was so thin and pretty. I'm not a fan of her looks anymore, little too soft for me. I'm a sucker for JWOWW. If people would go with it I would change my name to TWOWW. She's ready to knuckle up at any second for her friends, I love it. Ciara is on the tv show right now. She's the Queen.
We ran into a scrooge while we were out last night. This guy was so serious about us going to play pool with him. I basically had to turn on the "Bitch" and get him out of there. He would throw hissy fits and walk off, then come back and proceed trying to pick us up. His anger issues were clearly visible. He was definately talking to the wrong girls acting like that.
Also, I love when guys try to hit on me by saying they are in the military. They never expect a girl like me to say "Guess what?! I AM TO!"
I'm awesome.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Don't worry.
I promise all my posts won't be emotional poems, just had to get those out of me.
Better watch out for that Black Widow though, that ish is real.
Better watch out for that Black Widow though, that ish is real.
Black Widow
She stands in the darkness eyeing her prize,
jumps out and grabs them as they stand doe-eyed.
She's absolutely beautiful, her smile gives off light.
But look closely in her eyes you'll see something isn't right.
She rides on the wind, makes home where she lands,
until an unexpecting stranger takes a hold of her hand.
Her motives are unclear, she's there and then she's here.
Soon you will know all too well, if this doesn't strike you fear.
Stay clear of this black widow, shes not out to please.
She's seeking refuge in you, spreading the web she weaves.
The unhappy soul she carries, need fufilment from some source.
But patience isnt her virtue, nature wont get to take its course.
Soon all you once knew will be shadowed by her name,
You're family will fall in love with her, she won't feel the same.
She takes what she can get, good riddance to the rest,
Walks away without a word, without a mutter, without a breath.
Rules of engagement can be thrown out the door,
All's fair in love and war.
Love is blinded by her beauty, you dont see the destruction,
Until its to late, the venoms in your veins runnin.
ill continue later, i can go on forever with this one...
jumps out and grabs them as they stand doe-eyed.
She's absolutely beautiful, her smile gives off light.
But look closely in her eyes you'll see something isn't right.
She rides on the wind, makes home where she lands,
until an unexpecting stranger takes a hold of her hand.
Her motives are unclear, she's there and then she's here.
Soon you will know all too well, if this doesn't strike you fear.
Stay clear of this black widow, shes not out to please.
She's seeking refuge in you, spreading the web she weaves.
The unhappy soul she carries, need fufilment from some source.
But patience isnt her virtue, nature wont get to take its course.
Soon all you once knew will be shadowed by her name,
You're family will fall in love with her, she won't feel the same.
She takes what she can get, good riddance to the rest,
Walks away without a word, without a mutter, without a breath.
Rules of engagement can be thrown out the door,
All's fair in love and war.
Love is blinded by her beauty, you dont see the destruction,
Until its to late, the venoms in your veins runnin.
ill continue later, i can go on forever with this one...
A few years ago today..
Oh how all the events..
they unraveled from the core.
You must have felt so alone..
when you headed out the door.
You didnt head down the road,
You could have called a friend.
Why did you take that rope,
and decide today would be the end?
Do you realize what you did to her?
Your mother weeping on her knees.
Did you have this planned ahead?
How did you decide among the trees?
Did JOY fill you up?
did tears start to fall?
did excitement overcome you,
knowing you're leaving behind it all?
Is it a happy moment?
Or is it one that is sad?
You took a friend from us,
and took a son, from a Dad.
We all sat in the church,
and no one could believe,
I know I felt loads of guilt,
and remembered memories.
Your shoes they were scattered,
As your mom said they layed
When you returned to the house
From the events of that day.
A few years ago you decided to leave,
Boldly took that rope and tied it to a tree.
A few years ago you changed all our lives.
Ended yours too soon and headed for the light.
R.I.P Tyler Pope Hill. A dear friend of mine. I wouldn't hesitate to say he was like a brother. He took his life a few years ago... today.
they unraveled from the core.
You must have felt so alone..
when you headed out the door.
You didnt head down the road,
You could have called a friend.
Why did you take that rope,
and decide today would be the end?
Do you realize what you did to her?
Your mother weeping on her knees.
Did you have this planned ahead?
How did you decide among the trees?
Did JOY fill you up?
did tears start to fall?
did excitement overcome you,
knowing you're leaving behind it all?
Is it a happy moment?
Or is it one that is sad?
You took a friend from us,
and took a son, from a Dad.
We all sat in the church,
and no one could believe,
I know I felt loads of guilt,
and remembered memories.
Your shoes they were scattered,
As your mom said they layed
When you returned to the house
From the events of that day.
A few years ago you decided to leave,
Boldly took that rope and tied it to a tree.
A few years ago you changed all our lives.
Ended yours too soon and headed for the light.
R.I.P Tyler Pope Hill. A dear friend of mine. I wouldn't hesitate to say he was like a brother. He took his life a few years ago... today.
One chance for a first impression...
I started the summer off with a bang, pool everyday, boating, seeing friends, and having fun. Somehow here I am again, blogging like I'm 14. Life can throw you for some loops sometimes, I've had enough.
I love the name I chose for this so maybe it will keep my interest for years to come. Or months would be a step up from the last. I love to write... here I will write. The current topics trending on Twitter are Mel Gibson and that Yankees owner Stein something. There's really nothing to say about that other than it should have been Mel. He is a dark and scary man. He helps out Tom Cruise a lot though, making him look normal and such.
I've been lonely lately. Surrounded by people but none of them spark that something inside of me. I sit here with my son who gets on my nerves pretty bad when I'm feeling this way and wonder why I have let myself care more for others happiness than my own. I have done this for years, it didn't happen overnight. They say it didnt break overnight it wont fix overnight. This makes me believe it will never be fixed because I only have overnight. I've never been good at planning ahead, sticking to the script, everything I do is right here-- right now. Here I am in my miserable mind wishing I could run.
I've always had a tendency to run. I quit jobs, quit teams, quit chasing dreams, just let it all go. Most of the time it isnt because I'm scared, rather because I feel other people deserve it more than me. Life isn't easy with a tender heart.
I feel better already. Thank you Blogger. :)
I love the name I chose for this so maybe it will keep my interest for years to come. Or months would be a step up from the last. I love to write... here I will write. The current topics trending on Twitter are Mel Gibson and that Yankees owner Stein something. There's really nothing to say about that other than it should have been Mel. He is a dark and scary man. He helps out Tom Cruise a lot though, making him look normal and such.
I've been lonely lately. Surrounded by people but none of them spark that something inside of me. I sit here with my son who gets on my nerves pretty bad when I'm feeling this way and wonder why I have let myself care more for others happiness than my own. I have done this for years, it didn't happen overnight. They say it didnt break overnight it wont fix overnight. This makes me believe it will never be fixed because I only have overnight. I've never been good at planning ahead, sticking to the script, everything I do is right here-- right now. Here I am in my miserable mind wishing I could run.
I've always had a tendency to run. I quit jobs, quit teams, quit chasing dreams, just let it all go. Most of the time it isnt because I'm scared, rather because I feel other people deserve it more than me. Life isn't easy with a tender heart.
I feel better already. Thank you Blogger. :)
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