I started the summer off with a bang, pool everyday, boating, seeing friends, and having fun. Somehow here I am again, blogging like I'm 14. Life can throw you for some loops sometimes, I've had enough.
I love the name I chose for this so maybe it will keep my interest for years to come. Or months would be a step up from the last. I love to write... here I will write. The current topics trending on Twitter are Mel Gibson and that Yankees owner Stein something. There's really nothing to say about that other than it should have been Mel. He is a dark and scary man. He helps out Tom Cruise a lot though, making him look normal and such.
I've been lonely lately. Surrounded by people but none of them spark that something inside of me. I sit here with my son who gets on my nerves pretty bad when I'm feeling this way and wonder why I have let myself care more for others happiness than my own. I have done this for years, it didn't happen overnight. They say it didnt break overnight it wont fix overnight. This makes me believe it will never be fixed because I only have overnight. I've never been good at planning ahead, sticking to the script, everything I do is right here-- right now. Here I am in my miserable mind wishing I could run.
I've always had a tendency to run. I quit jobs, quit teams, quit chasing dreams, just let it all go. Most of the time it isnt because I'm scared, rather because I feel other people deserve it more than me. Life isn't easy with a tender heart.
I feel better already. Thank you Blogger. :)
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